ON my BIrthday ...

15/05/09

today is friday.. MY churCh fren hav a celebration to me.. cause got 4 days is my birthday.. my fren>> raymong, jeff, calvin, lihong, wendy, oliver, junjun,lingwei,and more... we take our dinner at pizza hut. tis is the 1st time got alot fren celebrate wit me.. i very touch on that night .. i very appreciate they celebrate with me...after we take dinner, my fren take the cake and we celebrate at A&W...when they start to sing "BIrTHday Song " to me.., i Feel VEry Touch n wanna Cry out.. BUt in the end, i not hav cry out la..cause paise la.. after that, they hav a game with me is hav to take out candle without use hand.. on that time, i just can use my mouth u take it out..when i wanna take it out..i not sure whether is jeff o not he put my on the cake.. walau.. whole face sticky la.. then i clear up with tissues la...hehehe.. before cut the cake.. we all take picture together lo... on that time we take picture, raymond and jeff push my face on the cake again, but tis they are failed to do it.. wakakaka... i successfully to avoice it.. haha..in here, i wanna say "can know u all, it my pressure" thank u my fren.. i will remember tis day de..

19/05/09 (on my BIrthday )

Today is the day before i start my exam is also is my birthday... at evening, li hong and i ask my fren go out to celebrate lo.. hehe...on tis day,we all hav take a dinner at HAwaIi REstoran.. there is a bit romantic and feel warm cause got a lot of my fren celebrate with me ma.. tis was a second time i celebrate my b'day...the birthday cake i knw is steven buy de.. in here i wanna thank him buy a cake for me...so that i can eat cake again .. wakakaka...i very happy on that day.. i feel warm when they beside me...i very thank them to be with me to celebrate...>> steven, jeff,raymond, chen, Aaron, johnny, william, wendy, lihong, daniel and My GAn bro lo...beside that i would like to thank the person who are send me a gift... i very like it.. i hav received ur all wish....THank..MUacks...

蓝天是自己的。。是自己彩绘的。。没人能决定你的蓝天^^

这感觉是真实的还是错觉？？

今天我和xxx出去。在回学院的路途中，我们谈到他了。谈着谈着，xxx告诉我在情人节之前， xxx 曾经和他谈我们三人之间的事， xxx告诉我其实他对我并没有那种感觉，他只是当我是朋友，他还说他对每个朋友都是那样的好。当时的我听了，心开始绞痛起来，心开始哭泣， 我在想现在的他还是一样吗？还是对我没感觉吗？在我心里，我开始了挣扎， 开始怀疑了。我真的开始慢慢地相信了他对我没有感觉。但是一想到他对我的关怀与坦诚他一切的事，我由不得不说他对我有些意思。我真不知道该相信自己的感觉还相信xxx的话，这话可是他曾经说过的。现在的他对我的感觉怎样，我真的不知道。我好想问他，但是我又怕他觉得我烦， 所以我的话还是往心里吞，不闻不问。我真的不知道怎么办，有谁能告诉我怎么办吗？这感觉是真实的还是错觉？？

忙着忙着原来自己慢慢地放下。。慢慢地坚强

自从那次和他msn后，我们更生疏了。我和他也不知怎的，一时好一时坏， 感觉不好受。虽然我想他，但我告诉我自己不要傻了，这样忽冷忽热的感觉自己能承受得了吗？想念一个人是快乐还是痛苦的呢？时常找他，他会不会觉得我烦呢？没找他，心里就想怎么他没找我啊？既然我不找他，他不找我的话那就算咯！（这些都是我的负气话，这样就没那么伤心了）难道他对我的而言真的那么重要吗？这个我自己都不知道。不找他因为我不想增添的他烦恼与压力，他已经够忙了，还有很多很多事情等着他解决的。他不找我或许他忙也或许对他而言我只不过是它普通不过的朋友罢了。

我想了很久很久，我还是想不到要怎么办。所以我决定压郁自己对他的感情，表现得没什么，自然地和他交谈。或许他会发现现在的我面对着他是不再多话了，因为对他越多话谈我就觉得自己更接近他的心。这样的话，我对他的感觉不但没有停止反而越陷越深了。因为他的出现，我的生活也因他而精彩而慌乱。生活精彩是因他的关心与快乐渲染了我的生活，而慌乱的生活是因为我对他的思念无法制止，是自己把自己的生活给混乱了。

就在最近，我都忙于课业，所以就没找他了。虽然会想起他，但相信一会儿就会Ok的了。现在的我只想赶快的做完课业，至于想他的事情就先放下。我会这样想，也全靠我学姐接了一本“偷偷喜欢你”的书给我，最让我记得的一句话是“喜欢一个人如果带给你生活上的负面影响，那么那喜欢就不是一个好的喜欢了”。所以呢！我就把我对他的喜欢转换为激励生活的力量，努力地做好工作。

所以叻！现在的我有两个选择：一、惟有等待；二、随时间慢慢的放下他。我会怎么选择呢？

槟城之旅。。

17-03-09（星期二）

今天我拖着承重的行李从学院搭巴士到吉隆坡，然后再拖着行李乘上了槟城之旅。在那路程中，我睡了大约三小时，找幸福的。哈哈！之后那两个小时就欣赏风景咯！让我感觉不同的是能近距离的让我看到山，感觉自己真的很渺小。哇！终于到了咯！槟城之旅要开始咯！

18-03-09（星期三）

今天我们的旅程要开始咯!在还没开始之前，当年果然就是医我的肚子咯！要知道我们吃什么吗？就看我所张贴的照片咯！不要惊讶哦！吃饱后呢？当然是去玩咯！这照片就是我们的第一站咯！海边。。。之后就是到处逛逛咯！ munMUn & shOPping lo... WAKakaa..回的时候，我可是第一次坐船哦！感觉好棒哦！

19-03-09（星期四）

今天我们出海的旅程报消了。因为睡迟了。唉！没关系啦！我们就去极乐寺咯！哇！那里有好多的小摊哦！看得我都眼花缭乱了！我就左买右拿，超开心的。 当然去极乐寺当然也要参观咯！这可是名胜地哦！看完后， 当然换地点咯！我们到了QUEEN BAY 购物中心， 当然去吃东西咯!hehe...

20-03-09

去金宝咯！

IS the time To beGIN...

是时候开始学习了，无论是什么事情或环境都得忍耐。学习对我而言是艰难的、也是最快乐的。在学习方面，我需要长大，我需要学习更多的知识，我需要充实自己，我需要学习，为了我的将来。在教会的另一面，我学习了很多生活上的解决智慧，我开始学习放下、学习知足、学习面对等等。。。。。。面对或许真的很难受，但是它也是最佳的方法，它可以把你从痛苦中释放出来，让你不再因自我的心而纠缠， 也让你看清楚接下来应该做的步伐。就如圣经所说的：“当孩子的时候，说孩子的话语，有孩子的思想，但当你渐渐的长大时，就应该把孩子的思想给抛弃。”意思就是人长大了就得有大人的思想，不应该在孩子的思想徘徊。就像现在的我，很多事情都得以成熟与稳重的思想想某件事情，不可以再横冲自撞，因为要知道受伤不只是自己，还有别人。我需要学习更多的智慧，这样我才能更加的能掌握我的现在、未来。这里将会是我学习的地方、分享的地方。总而言之，这里将会成为我的甜、酸、苦、辣、咸的倾诉之地。学习是无界限的，所谓：“学到老，活到老”。加油！和我一起创造彩色的蓝天吧！！

Is the time to begin the study, regardless of what is or the environment have to be patient. Study are difficult for me but also the most happy. In the study, I need to grow up, I need to learn more knowledge, I need to equip themselves with the needs of my study, for my future. At the other side of the church, I learned a lot of intelligence to solve life, I begin to lay down their study, study content, study the face and so on. . . . . . Perhaps the true face of difficult subject, but it is also the best way, it can put you in the release from suffering, so that you no longer self-entanglement of the heart, but also let you see clearly the next step should be to do. Just like the Bible says: "When the child that the child's discourse, there is a child's idea, but when you grow up gradually, it should put the child to abandon the idea." Means that people have grown up adults have thought, should not be hovering at a child's idea. Just like me now, a lot of things have to be mature and prudent thought want something, can not wait any longer since the collision cross-Chong, because injuries have to know not only ourselves, other people have. I need to study more intelligence, so I was able to acquire more of my present and future. Here will be my place of study, sharing the place. All in all, here will become of my sweet, sour, bitter, spicy, salty talk of the place. Study are no boundaries, the so-called: "learn, live to old age." Come on! Join me in creating the blue color bar! !